Where Art Thou Aesthetics Please?

If I could,

I would

Sculpt young girls,

Paint them,

And, if I could be a little boy again,

I would dance with them;

If I could be a little boy again,

I could have my friend back then

???

As I grew older, it happened,

Suddenly, violently,

As the years passed,

I grew fonder of

Young girls

aesthetically

???

She needs no branding,

No face painting,

No smiling,

Seemingly standing in the nude,

Only her face we see,

Not inappropriately,

To demonstrate

Pure and natural beauty,

Much like my muted mutual friend

???

But being a man, having

An aesthetic eye

 For girls?

Has a darker side

For our panic-protected world and

for my childhood,

His story

???

When I see her,

I see the defiance of pretty

But barely dirty bare feet,

Of a girl looking at me

Looking at her,

A bite away from the dangers of womanhood

???

Of innocence not lost,

Or has it been already lost,

On the cliff, the pending dusk of girlhood?

Me, not knowing if I should grieve or celebrate

Her delayed glory and my childhood memories’ defeat

???

For it is in a young girl to be just so beautiful in presentation,

Yet so clueless to its affect,

She, now, defies age

By dancing like a woman,

Only to return a child again

???

Is it inappropriate for a child-woman to act a woman-child?

Sassy is in the middle somewhere, but

It’s demanded that men not notice,

So we pretend so,

For we are perverts, peeping Toms, or pedophiles

All in denying,

Take your pick

???

We yell,

“Stay Safe,

Stay Safe,

Stay Safe,”

All the while

Multitasking on our phones with kids in back

Who’s driving this torment and chaos called life’s hack

???

I have a confession;

You know it;

You suspected as much,

That I might like girls

more than women aesthetically because,

In my defense,

Why would I not like someone that is

Uninhibited,

Carefree,

Unguarded,

Inappropriately,

Confident,

But timid in shyness,

And bold when not supposed to be so,

Spontaneous,

And truly free

???

Can you really blame me,

When their only motive

Is to be happy,

And so it is with me

???

I want the Me Too Movement

To cease,

When we have equality and everyone

Can afford to be carefree,

When women and girls can be anything,

Any way they want to be,

Naked or beautifully clothed

And we will truly value thee

???

I learned visually

 That girls were better than me(n).

Can I like girlhood,

Please?

And not be an offender,

A pedophile,  

A pervert, or

A sleaze

???

Can I make you uncomfortable

Please

 Because deep down

You are afraid of me

???

Or is it their beauty

That scares you so?

Would you wouldn’t want to be me?

You are,

No worries, for shouldn’t we love natural aesthetic beauty?

Dying in Artificial Coolers

One of my earlier pieces … had to wake up at 2:00 a.m. to write it.

Dropout Professor

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What if your life was at the bottom of that dude’s cooler?

Your eternity, that bit of liquid there;

You see it, rolling around the Styrofoam seams

Lost, wandering, this way and that way

Until it dries up, or the dog licks it

In hopes of something better.

You, YOUR life and dreams,

What then?


What does 10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60

Or 70 matter … a century even?

Some live a week, maybe only a day;

Others lose count or don’t count.


They simply stop working.


It could be worse, right?

It could be maybe that muddy hole instead?

You know, the one your bare-child foot got stuck in

Back when you had hope and dreams?

No, better than plastic-type white;

This one dark, warm and dirty — the primordial soup

— A mommy’s womb — ;

The other bright, artificial and painfully clean.

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Nudity Is

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I flipped through the pictures until I came across the one I saw before.

In all the vividness and splendor of black and white, I peered at a woman on the edge.

There, in a moment, she is nude, rear facing the camera, front facing danger and destruction, turning away from the tantalizing passion and desire of man at the risk of the free fall below.

The girl with her arms stretched above her head; her hands are in the “salute” pose I’d often seen in gymnastics.

Those beautiful, slight, fragile hands are pointed toward the heavens in much the same way as thousands who had been tied to crosses before, but these ropes seem gone, cast away, if just for a moment, and now these two features—the features that give us so much advantage in this world and that cause so much pain—are positioned to cut through the air and thus the water in desperate hope to limit impact.

In a moment, her long hair is wild and free, as is her body.

Free of clothing, free of the concept of nudity, evil, and humiliation. Her mane pours over her shoulders not in an attempt to hide her nakedness but rather to highlight her natural beauty.

I saw her dark wet hair kiss her spine. The two are glued in matrimony of being.

The spine slowly crawls to the buttocks. They are firm, muscular but feminine. I felt elated. I felt good. Looking at her made me love being human, and I think the human body is beautiful. The hips join in to create a beautiful harmony.

I can still recall the diamond-shaped light sifting between her legs, where the buttocks, thighs and crotch meet. Dark skin against the light of the sun; water, the giver of life, running down the flesh; the woman, in the moment, and the viewer moved in time.

There, in a moment, my eyes moved further down to see the form of her legs, her hamstrings, the back of her knees—that are so fun to tickle—and her wonderfully shaped calf muscles.

It finishes with the soles of her feet blinking at me, “dirty” but not so and even so, I would not mind them dirty at all, for all of her is so beautiful in this moment. She brings me into her experience and I forget all about the photograph.

Everything becomes one: I, her, and nature.

Misogynist Memorandum

Concept for young sexy female car repair

Date: July, throughout the years

To: Wretched Wrench-Wielding Wenches

From: Random Patriarchal Interpretations (aka: society)

 

It has come to my attention that several wenches under our employ are wielding wrenches–some physical and others the virtual equivalent. I personally understand how such desperate and wanton women would desire to forcibly twist and pull the nuts off those that make their lives ever more difficult and fraught with fear, even when, often, for their own good.

As one that has been both on the receiving end of such violence and that has enjoyed his male privilege extensively, I ask our ladies to think back to simpler days and their “lady ancestries.” Be nice to men.

If only she would come to work and look more young and make her bosses coffee when they ask that of her, as well as any other errands or favors that men fancy. Serving is the best way to a promotion for young servant girls, and even if one is not so young, she should try to fool her boss with wantonness for him–not being miserable, base, and mean. Such little-girl behavior will lead to her defamation. I am interpreting Shakespeare’s meaning here, and we all know that he was quite the feminist of the 1600s. Women could not be feminists then, nor could they be tastefully employed. Those were surely better days.

Women, I find, cannot help it. It’s in the nature of a wretched wench. In other words, she should aim to fool us where youth dies but experience lives. She probably won’t fool us for young ladies always take initiative to be noticed and are less self-conscious than the older she. They are less clever too, therein notice men’s advantage? I am giving the plot away!

Don’t you know that for women experience is a demotion not a promotion?  Since being young and virgin (and stupid helps) is a poor long-term plan, giving up is the best advantage. So from now on, smile instead of frown, be pleasant instead of mean, and never seem desperate, even with the customer (or your bosses) for you will scare them away, even if you are not wielding a wrench. To be ladylike is to be pleasant and young-looking, at least in spirit. So wrenches are forbidden as no woman should ever defend herself against a man, either physically or psychologically. That is unladylike as is giving into a man and getting caught as a result of her desperation. Desire is never a man’s fault. I believe it says so in great books?

No more twisting off nuts, please, or such a wench might find herself in HR. Let us protect her, but then again we don’t protect violent wenches, do we? Oh, sorry. My bad?

Let me rephrase all of this. In the end, no matter what happens to a “girl,” we reserve the right to enforce the negative connotation over the positive. No matter how she looks at it, it’s her fault and men’s privilege. A man can do no wrong when with the lesser sex.

(From the Author) Actaully, I don’t know what to think of this. I wrote it a while ago. I kind of like and hate it, so I will let you decide. 

 

 

A Border Collie and a Peanut Butter Sandwich

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I cannot even find my picture of you,

Sitting in your favorite chair,

The place you would go

To eat your peanut butter sandwich after your walk.

 

Damn you for getting old,

For stinking, for dying,

Slopped about the house, black and white,

Tail curled,

Licking peanut butter off the roof of your mouth.

 

You loved to walk, scratching the wall,

The leash hanging above,

Still like death but standing in heartbreaking anticipation.

The restraint that so often muted your collie instincts marks your grave,

hanging on a green stake above.

A small but stunted tree struggles right next to it, above you.

Was it the noose that held you back, or have you finally broken free of stinking, aging,

And dying?

 

You were a sweet animal among the cruel human

And the psychopathic nature of Nature.

The sound of your nails tapping the floor,

The sound of you scratching,

And, yes, licking peanut butter off the roof of your mouth.

You, it, had a rhythm that gave predictability to the unpredictability of life.

 

Your eyes, that of a Border Collie,

Big and brown, full of feeling,

Teared up once, when I

Yelled at you.

 

You died alone;

I remember patting you on the head,

your labored but soft puffing.

You tried to hang on to the beauty of life,

an oft-stealth flicker in this vast and timeless universe.

 

I remember the day I got you.

You cried for mom,

and my fleeting-child parenting skills went

A wash when you peed in

My bed.

My mom put you next to hers,

In a box we got from the dollar store,

And you became her

Fourth son and my third brother.

 

And I let you die alone;

I couldn’t handle death,

The death of my friend, brother, and of my childhood.

I turned up the radio to block out the sound of the approaching

Reckoning for you and for all of us.

Being denied leave for a dying son,

My mother went to work while I went numb

And blocked out life.

 

As silence engulfed my room.

I no longer heard breathing from you.

There you lay,

A fragment of the brother you were,

But I summed up courage and mummified you

With the discount plastic garbage bags from the dollar store.

One over your bottom, and a plastic bag over your head—

A head I often kissed and pet;

I taped the middle shut and carried you,

Like a sixty-pound baby into the freezer we call Buffalo.

I moved on the autopilot that abuse and harshness perfects.

We would put you in the ground, when life was awakening.

Freckles

Dropout Professor

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They are scattered,

Maybe all but gone now,

But I wish for a hint

Of them

In seeing them shine;

and maybe now

A beautiful kind of embarrassment

for you,

and not for me.


That first day, I was trembling hard

Away from mommy, the first time, pulled

From her smile and mommy’s tender-warm love

to the looming pale-green dome

of bus number 46 in ‘76.


Toward the cold, stern and tired eyes of Mrs. Katiner.

I spell it wrong now, and would get Mr. Yustock’s paddle.

Him, too, I misspell, but I don’t misspell you,


Renee.


But she put me with the tall and pretty blonde,

more like a mantis than a unicorn,

but so pretty was she,

with long powerful

And lovely legs, for a child.


She knew I would not cry or tell,

so she kicked me hard for my sins

I had yet to commit.


Black…

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Hefner Reminiscence

Lovely bunny couple

Oh, I reminisce

Of Hugh-style

Sexiness, a

Gentle kind of

Sexist-ness

Bulging with

Pumped-up

Tits,

Bleach-soaked blondes with

Child-style

“This-is-what-I-like”

Lists

And all those

Prepubescent-like

Hairlessness.

 

Oh, of Hefner I reminisce

Of reader-less text

But a stuck together

Lass;

She was my favorite

Though

But forgot to wipe her off

After I explode,

Oh no, but I wear his

Robe though

And miss him

So much mo.

 

 I’d like to call him dad though

Smothered with his

Gentlemen-ness, fuzzy tails,

And three tight little

Mistresses.

 

Sometimes I like fake shit

Because real is just

So real,

And when asked why he was such an

Ass, by a feminist

He said that he’d hope women would

Like his dream as much as

They are every man’s dream.

 

A dream that came from his broken heart,

When in youth

He was left with nothingness.

R.I.P. to Hefner’s Reminiscence

Now that sexual fantasy is

Political business.